Listen

When Obedience Means Letting Go of Obligation – Why I’m Pressing Pause on My Podcast | Ep 385

Watch

Read

When Obedience Means Letting Go of Obligation – Why I’m Pressing Pause on My Podcast

Hey friend,

Have you ever had one of those moments where you felt a nudge you couldn’t ignore, and you knew things couldn’t stay the same?

That’s what happened for me recently.

For a while, I’d been carrying this sense of discontentment that I couldn’t quite name, and nothing was really wrong. On paper, everything looked good. I get to coach, and I get to teach, and I get to help women create books, and I’m living what used to be the dream.

I love my people, and I love the mission!

And yet… something felt missing. Or incomplete.

If you’ve ever thought, “Gosh, I should be happier than this, so why am I restless?” then you know exactly what I’m talking about.

I knew there was a tension between what I was doing and what actually gave me life, but I just couldn’t put my finger on it.

Then last week, I had an unexpected aha moment.

I was watching a video by a YouTuber named Ed Lawrence about creating better YouTube content.

I was actually planning to upgrade my podcast, so I clicked the “work with me” link, expecting a sales page.

Instead, I landed on a video where he explained why he was shutting down the way he currently worked with clients.

He broke his business into buckets and talked about what energized him, what was fine, and what drained him. Then he shared what he was moving into next: in‑person masterminds. Because he’d experienced the power of being in the room, that’s what he wanted to build more of.

As I watched, something in me grew uneasy.

I realized there were parts of my business that, in their current form, drained me. Again, I love the people, and I love the mission and the message, and that part will not change.

But the process itself wasn’t giving me life anymore.

And once I saw that, I couldn’t unsee it.

So I took that discontentment to the Lord, and I prayed for clarity, and honestly, I didn’t hear anything specific.

What I did hear very clearly was fear.

What if you let people down?
What if people think you’re inconsistent?
What if you’re just supposed to push through and be grateful?

It was like an obligation monster got really loud, and it drowned out my ability to hear Holy Spirit and discern the truth.

So I called my husband so he could talk me off the wall before I created an entire belief system around staying stuck. I shared everything I’m sharing here, and instead of fixing it, he gave me something I didn’t know I needed.

Permission!

Permission to dream, not answers, just permission.

Shortly after that, I had a strategy call with my coach that was already scheduled.

I planned to talk about upgrading the podcast, but instead I said, “Can I tell you what I’m really going through?”

I shared the discontentment, and the Ed Lawrence moment, and the fear of letting people down, and the obligation holding me back from making changes, all of it.

She brought me back to the end in mind.

Who am I called to reach?
What transformation do I actually want women to experience?

That’s when something clicked.

I realized I don’t dislike coaching, I just don’t like coaching that’s mostly strategy.

What brings me life is creating experiences, and creativity energizes me, and fun, playful, immersive environments energize me. It’s why I love places like Disney World—everything is telling a story and inviting you into it.

Seeing truth land in a woman’s heart and body, not just her brain, energizes me, and wrapping transformation in a fun wrapper, heck yeah, that energizes me.

My coach didn’t tell me what to do. She invited me to ask different questions.

What if you were free to explore?
What if you were allowed to dream with the end in mind?

But first, I had to release the pressure to keep working out of obligation.

When I let go of the “have to,” it allowed me to dream freely with God.

Then I got to dream freely with my husband, and it was so much fun!

And that freedom allowed clarity to show up.

So this year, I’m focusing on three things that feel deeply aligned and life‑giving:

A Choose‑your‑own‑adventure style fiction book built on my Courageous Quest framework
It’s part epic quest adventure, part Narnia‑style spiritual journey, and part identity transformation.
An upgraded Courageous Club
Shifting from mostly strategy‑based sessions into experiential, transformational moments—more stepping into the story and less just studying it.
One in‑person experiential event
The easiest way to describe it is this: mystery dinner theater, the movie Clue, and an escape room had a baby. Immersive, fun, and designed to create transformation through experience.

All three are built on the same heart and framework. Each element feeds the others, and they all exist to help Christian women entrepreneurs:

build an intimate relationship with Father
understand how deeply loved they are
move from striving into rest and identity
recognize that they aren’t broken but are simply believing a broken story
keep moving forward with courage when fear and old stories resurface

As part of making space for this work, I’ve decided to pause my podcast as it currently exists.

Not because it didn’t matter—it did. It served its season. I’m genuinely grateful for what it built in me and how it's helped you.

This pause gives me space to create what’s next with intention instead of obligation to do it one way.

It gives me time to listen, to dream, and to build something that truly aligns with how God created me to serve and what energizes me.

Yes, I’ll be back, but in a new format and a new rhythm. More creative. More immersive. More aligned. More fun!

If you’ve been feeling that same quiet discontentment, this might resonate with you:

you’ve been trying to upgrade something that might actually need to evolve
you love the people and the mission, but the process itself feels draining
you’re afraid to name what’s not giving you life because you don’t want to let anyone down
you keep telling yourself you should just push through and be grateful
you feel a nudge you can’t ignore, even though everything looks fine on paper

If that’s you, know this: you’re not ungrateful. It may simply be God nudging you toward a change.

And if you need permission to dream, I’m loaning you mine.

Go dream with God, with the end in mind.

I’m really looking forward to walking into what’s next together.

Podcast-Blog